No one knows.

We all are running with a ‘tick-tock’. Nobody knows where and why. Emptiness fills our mind and heart. it’s everywhere. We are at places but we are absent. Lost somewhere in latest electronic screens. We want everything instantly. We can’t wait for anything. We can’t wait for the sun to rise, we can’t wait for day to end, let alone appreciate. We want more in every moment. We want to stay updated. We read all the jokes but laugh at none. Hunger of living more in every moment is killing our moments. We are so much fed with products, that we now don’t do anything other than consuming. We don’t have time to appreciate because we are too busy showing off to the world. It’s a crazy race where everyone is loosing. And running where? No one knows.

Living on..Dreaming on..

somewhere in class 7th – a round table conference by young minds of future ( ahem, a recess time chit- chat with gfs ) when one eager girl rose the most imp question of that time – “what are you going to be?” one by one 5-6 girls replied as a doctor, a CA, an engineer etc etc…and then heads turned towards me expecting a reply..i was caught dumbfounded…never gave a serious thought to it before…but i was too ashamed to say “i don’t know” specially when all my gfs seemed so clear about their aim…so i thought for a while and a pile of second-hand interior designing magazines(Rs. 5 each!) and newspaper cuttings of contemporary buildings(& of course my love for stationary) flashed on my mind and i replied – “an ARCHITECT, that’s what i am going to be.”

class 10th result day – One of the best days of my lil life so far…i scored 90% ! (!!!!hey m not bragging about it…emm OK FINE, maybe m bragging…life hardly gives some things to brag about anyways!;) ) Now technically there was a question of choosing further education stream…but as we all know in our beloved India if you score above 75%, you MUST take science stream otherwise you are considered as a certified fool and a score you have scored in SSC goes in vain. Still my dad had guts to ask me what i wanted to study…n i replied, whatever stream is necessary to get in to an Architecture college.. it was science at that time………n i became a proud student of Ruia college, science stream..

class 12th – Science wasn’t my cup of tea only because of chemistry..2 years, I had to study my worst enemy CHEMISTRY…till the date I haven’t understood why bloody idiot carbon has to make reactions with every other compound it finds…but I HAD TO study all that crap for the sake of architecture…i actually found a way out, made a survey n found out that one needed avg 60% in HSC plus entrance exam score to get into archi college…so to be on safer side, i had prepared for 65% of syllabus…and managed to score 64.89%..(people said it was a shame for a girl who scored well in SSC…but I think I did whatever was needed for my architecture…why slog more?)

well, moving ahead…so i was all set to be an architecture student (psycho, wacko, weirdo as people call them) after scoring fairly well in entrance exam…n the roller coaster ride of a lifetime started with Dr. D Y Patil college of architecture a.k.a. DYPCA…

Life at DYPCA – amazed and astounded by the new horizons in front of me, those studios..designs..discussions..new friends..everything felt so right, so good…DYPCA became an integral part of me..From the freaking submissions to exciting tours to lifelong friendships to the joy of bunking…it gave me everything..i lived every bit of it..and not to forget, it’s the place where I found love of my life, PHOTOGRAPY..

Magical years of this little life span…surely its not been just a ride of only ups…had to face the hiccups too…but that’s worth it…no complaints…more difficult the time became, more intense friendships felt.. These years made me what I m today..

Today, at the time of farewell, when m hardly few steps away from a title “architect”, I wanna dedicate this one to the people who accompanied me in this journey..my friends…this is my journey which couldn’t have been so special without all the people around me…some made it miserable n some made it a joy ride…n of course our beloved profs…cant ignore their contribution to this…love all..

They say you CANT live your dreams…I didn’t realise all this while living it…but today when I look back to the girl in 7th std who dreamt about herself buried in clutter of drawings and stationary along with great friends, I can see that girl in me happy and content…who lived her dreams…n she is still dreaming on…this was the preface…the journey to the architecture has just started NOW.. in the world outside the campus..

Been there, done that…time to move on to another chapters of life…this one is happily over..

p.s. 7 years after schooling, at the reunion dinner of 8 of school gfs…everyone re-introduces their selves as who has become what now…n at the end of it, a girl says pointing towards me, “she is the only one of us who became what she said…she was the only one who had a clear vision about her aim and destiny..” !!!!!

life is weird, isn’t it?

Sometimes

Sometimes…
We learn to smile

Sometimes…
Few moments remain with us,
Forever

Sometimes…
Few words,
Touch us deep

Sometimes…
We never know,
Why we weep

Sometimes…
We search for reasons,
Without looking within

Sometimes…
We reach the destination,
Which was never too far

Sometimes…
We realize those questions,
Which don’t have answers

Sometimes…
We learn to love,
Knowing only to sacrifice

Sometimes…
We learn to dream,
Not knowing where the future lies

Sometimes…
We look at the dawn,
And the dusk comes by

Sometimes…
We learn to live,
Without understanding its meaning

Sometimes…
We hide our tears

And sometimes…
We smile,
Through our tears.

- Unknown.

ITS MY COLLEGE

One of the FROZEN TIMES..

I miss the moments in which i spent my lyfe..
I know they'll never come back again,
I can just cherish those memories,
which bring some crying smiles n smiling tears...

Lyfe in Stolen moments..

This one is about my lyfe n daily routine..just to remind myself how happily(??) i live..My schedule on a busy day...

5 am - alarm clock rings to remind me that i m suppose 2 go to sleep after working from 12am to 5am..i try to finish my design folio n go to sleep for 2lucky hours..n damn alarm again rings to wake me up..n the day begins...

8.45 am - the lecture has already begun at 8.30 and i m still half n hour away from the college stuck in d traffic..friends calling to come as soon as possible otherwise we will miss the attendance :( (i bet one can miss d lecture but cant afford to lose an attendance!)

9.15 am - standing at d classroom door listening to the blah blah blah of d prof for being late (But y d hell he is not ready to listen that it wasn’t my fault? trust me IT WASNT!!!)

10 am - 1st lecture gets over n we get a notice that we have a test at 10.30!!! WTF!!! But don’t have any option n we run towards d Xerox center to get d copy of d notes for d test..so that we don’t find a shortage of d notes for copying ;) (coz only 1-2 guys in d class has it, lucky us..a hearty thank to d inventor of d Xerox machine)

10.30 am - we get a test paper n i hear some instant reactions from behind..wtf!! $^%$^ %^&%^&U^%*@@$&* what #@$% is this? %^%&##@# prof! damn #$!&^$^@#$!!! this is d only Question jiske notes nahi hai :(( will have to write answers on our own!!! ( prof will have terrible n shocking time while reading them..usko bhi toh saza mile! )

11.30 am - lunch break but no time for food..finish d lunch in hurry n start preparing for d design studio..

12 pm - design prof takes a round in a class..glancing at everyone's drawings..n shoots d words, "There is not a single sensible design work in ur class..ur class is a @#$@^&#!!! why don’t u work???" (excuse me sir, what d hell do u call our donkeywork of last whole night, when u were in fast asleep!! @#%^^#@#!!)
n some more blah blah blah..till 3pm..which is an official time to get d lecture over..but as sir says..design is a continuous process which doesn’t follow any rule but makes its own (sadly designers cant :( ) ..n our design discussions goes vigorously till sir gets a call either from his office / client / WIFE!! ( he cant ignore d last one! ;) ) ... n by God's grace, sir gets a call at 5..so we end up d discussion session at 5 n run out of d college..towards d small adda of us..for some food..n wait on d bus stand for long..

6.30 pm - finally i manage to get into d crowded bus.

8.30 pm - home sweet home after a camel ride on pathetically bad roads..i take a shower again followed by dinner.

9.30 pm - finish some assignments on internet..along with chatting with frndz..

11 pm - mind n body stop supporting my hardworking soul n i head towards d bed..ending my tiring day..for d next one..

the reason for writing this post was a thought that if this is my routine then when do i LIVE??? so here is a quick replay...

5 am - alarm clock telling me to go to sleep after so much of work..emmm d clock seems like d sweetest gift of god..it rings again after 2 hrs :( but i shut it n realise that i can sleep for 15more mins..yuppiee!!..trust me those 15mins seem more pleasant then those 2hrs of sleep..(kuch jyada mile toh kise achha nhi lagta!)

8.45 am - getting late n stuck in traffic..but there comes a song on radio which was dedicated to me in school by my crush (puppy love u c ***blush!)

9.15 am - listening to d gaalis of prof for being late..but he finally takes us in d class n we enter laughing shamelessly..frndz make stupid comments in d boring lecture..n we sit controlling our laughs till our face gets red..n till stomach hurts.. :D

10 am - at Xerox center for notes..but till we get a Xerox, we have some yummy breakfast at our famous aunty ka idli stall ( ab bhukhe pet bacche(??!!) thodi na test likh payenge! :D )..hot steamy idlies before d test...mmmm..mindblowing!

10.30 am - staring at d test paper..abusing d prof..d subject n d question..badly frustrated..n d cell vibrates..shows a new sms from my best friend..n i forward it to my frnd who sits behind me..n that sadial PJ makes us laugh during d test..even prof notices our giggle n shows her witchy eyes wider..n we stop giggling n try to continue with d paper.. :))

11.30 am- busy in working..no time for lunch..i feel low n a frnd notices..she comes to me with food..n makes me eat that.. :) ( d feeling that someone cares for u is one of d most soothing feeling in lyfe )

12 pm - though we get a good firing by d prof for design..d passion for d subject keeps my interest on..n heavy design discussions give some food for thought..n d tea along with the discussions by sir (yeah, he actually pays sometimes for d tea in d studios!!) makes d atmosphere so perfect!
frndz + fav subject + tea = good time!

5 pm - at our adda outside d college with frndz..man, nothing can get better than that!

6.30 pm - in a crowded bus, getting a window seat feels like heaven.. stuck in d traffic but again looking at d beauty of a sunset from my window seat along with d fav song playing on my cell making me alone in d crowd..hmmm...do i need to describe that feeling???

8.30 pm - after a tiring day, a shower for 1hour (yeah, u read that right..ONE HOUR!!!)... d only time n place in urban world for solitude where u can forget everything n everyone n can be urself! m not kidding, sacchi! :D

9.30 pm - along with d assignments on internet, chatting with online frndz..surfing on net..updating my flickr account..all my fav things which makes me happy :)

11 pm - sleeping time!!! but before that SMS conversations with frndz till midnight n a busy tiring day asures a sweet n sound sleep with d hopes of better day tomorrow! :)

..n stealing some moments to write this post on d same busy day...So these r d tiny moments of my lyfe..i live FOR these moments, IN these moments! cheers for lyfe! n for d busy lyfe..which multiplies my joy for getting these tiny moments for my self!

Becoming Insane...By infected mushroom

Wake me up before i change again..
Remind me the stories that I wont get Insane..
Tell me why its always the same..
Explain me the reason why I am so much in pain..

Salute lyfe for whatever it gives... [ do we have other option? ;-) ]

A song with superb lyrics from the movie - Life in a METRO...
Saluting lyfe for whatever it gives you..



kyun jindagi se ho shikava gila,
yeh hasati hai roti hai, jo bhi hai jaisi hai,
jo bhi yeh deti hai woh hai tera...
kar salaaaaam!!!

nakhre utha isake nakhre utha 
haan dhoop bhi hai yeh, chhaanv bhi hai yeh
jo bhi yeh deti hai, tu maan ja...
kar salaaaam!!!

kho jaana, pa jaana, na paana, hai jindagi jaane le
bik jaana, loot jaana, bass jaana hai jindagi maan le
ho ho ho karle yakin, jo kal gaya woh phir se aata nahin
ho ho ho gujra huva jo waqt hai woh dastak lagaata nahin
jo aaj hai bass wahi hai tera...
ha kya teri hasti hai, mitti ki basti hai,
pal mein hi ho jaati hai yeh fanaa...
kar salaaaaam!!!

kyun jindagi se ho shikava gila,
yeh hasati hai roti hai, jo bhi hai jaisi hai,
jo bhi yeh deti hai woh hai tera...
kar salaaaaaaam!!!...........